Saturday, April 12, 2008
Here writes Urs truly!!!
Its not about doing stupid things. Its not about doing silly things. I won't tell you I'm ok. I won't tell you, I'm fine and feeling well. I'm not. She wanted a break, I gave. It was hard to give, but I gave. When I think back, about all the things she said she kept inside and finally blew on me, I wonder, would this happen if she would just tell each and everything bothering her before? I'm not blaming her nor am I trying to deny any of it. But wouldn't saying everything out in the open give the chance of solving it? Arguments would happen but at least I would know what's bothering her and why. Am I such a person that would not understand? Am I such a person that would be so unconcern and not give a listening ear? Am I? I'm not trying to be arrogant of sarcastic or egoistic. Have I not listened to my friends? Have I not been there for people? Have I not been there when there's a need for me? All I need, is to know. Its was my fault, yes. I neglected her, I didn't do anything. But it didn't mean I don't listen.
I'm hurting inside, each day passes and I still think of her, of all the times. It seems pathetic I know, but this is the deepest hurt I've felt. And yet its my second serious relationship, I just want her back very badly.
Remixed on..
4/12/2008 08:39:00 PM
